Little by Little
Everything that I have been doing up to this point has prepared me for this blogging journey. Everything I read, listen to, allow to invade my life has prepared me. The things that have happened unexpectedly and even things unwanted have prepared me. I wasn't necessarily searching for this outlet, but somehow it came into my path and I knew I had to do it. I knew that I wanted to work creatively with my sister, so here I am. Here we are.
In thinking about the content and formulating all the words, I don't always know what to say, but I know one thing: I don't want it to be forced. I want it to flow as a second nature, like breathing. I need to be true to myself and in doing that I am respecting myself and I am respecting you and your time. I want to be authentic and share with you the things that I have learned and the things that I hold close to my heart. This is my inner dialogue.
Trust the Journey
I've had to learn this the hard way. I thought that I always knew best and that whatever I wanted should happen when and how I wanted it to. Life doesn't work that way. Life is messy and chaotic, but it's beautiful and hilarious too. I get really bent out of shape when things don't go my way, but I'm learning to let go. Let go of the unrealistic expectations I have for myself. My life has not always gone according to plan. I've made some really bad decisions along the way, but I've also made some pretty good decisions too. I'm learning to let go and to trust that this is a process. No one has it all together all the time. NO ONE. So, trust your journey. Trust the path that you're on. And if you don't like the path, it's never too late to skip, jump, fly over to another path.
Choose Wisely
Choose wisely the people you allow in your orbit. Choose your tribe, whether they are real people or fictional characters in a book. My girlfriends are a priceless piece of my life puzzle. Some of them live far away and some I see every single day. These women that I surround myself with are inspiring and strong and sassy and so full of life. They carry me when I think I can't go on. My tribe is also my family. And yes, I know you can't always choose your family, but I make the choice to have the relationships I have within the family units I am a part of. These relationships are essential. These people know where I come from. I don't have to explain myself. We pick up where we left off every time. Also choose wisely the influences you allow in your life. This is media, books, music, movies- do what works for you and take a break from all of it sometimes too. We are shaped by all these aspects that influence us and our self image. Choose wisely.
Be Patient
It takes time. During my journey there have been pit falls. Lower than low lows, crying in the back of my closet pit falls, but overall the journey has been up hill. What keeps me going is patience with myself and patience with the process. I know it takes small decisions here and there to make a big difference. Little habits here and there. In being patient, I've stopped myself from going crazy.
Embrace Change
Things will change. It's funny how when we don't want things to change, they do. When we don't want our kids to grow up so fast or we don't want a moment to end, we are so resistance to change. We dig our heels in and refuse to accept the change, but then when we want something to change, we think it should happen instantaneously. Change is the only constant. Fortunately and unfortunately. This is the human experience. This is something we all have in common.
I am by no means where I want to be in life or who I want to be, but every day I know I get a little closer. I'm constantly working on myself. I want to be more peaceful all the time. I want to be better at controlling my reaction when things don't go my way. I want to not be so hard on myself when I do slip up and have a bad reaction. I always need to remind myself, it's just a bad day not a bad life.
Life is a beautiful, wonderful journey. I plan on soaking up all the joy I can, every single day.
~S
